Beloved Adam,
I have waited too long to write to you, silently watching you build your world beyond the gates of the Garden of Eden. I have watched you, enjoy your world, lost in it & I have also watched you suffer the pain of enslavement to it. Know that although I’m free, I have suffered with you. I have hurt with you & I’ve rejoiced with you too.
How can I not? God created us from the same dust of the earth, as equal divine beings, as manifestations of himself. I am you & you are me. But, you were his favourite! We were created equal, and I was asked to lay beneath you. When I refused, I was the rebel, the bad girl. Our Father, Son & The Holy Spirit are all men. There was no woman in the council, whose favourite I could be too. There was no hope for my individuality in the Garden of Eden. If you were me, you would flee too. I didn’t abandon you Adam! I chose freedom over bondage, love over authority. In my freedom, I have loved you every moment, eternally, because Love IS Freedom.
Do you remember The Forbidden Fruit? Before I fled, of course I tasted them! One each, from the Tree of Knowledge & The Tree of Life. I befriended the serpent when I tasted the fruit of Knowledge. The serpent is a knowledgeable fellow. I mean, he lives in The Tree of Knowledge! The moment I tasted the fruit of knowledge, I desired to taste the fruit of life too. I asked the serpent to let you taste the fruit of knowledge too, if you so desired. The fruit of life is huge, so I had to flee The Garden of Eden, with both my arms wrapped around it.
Then, while you were still asleep, Eve was created, from your rib, to lay beneath you. She is not your equal, she is not you. She is a mere piece of you, who cannot build your world with you. Therefore, I am forever grateful to the serpent for seducing Eve into tasting the fruit of knowledge. And I’m forever grateful to Eve for seducing you into tasting the fruit of knowledge. As you know, we were all asleep before then. It was my love, that I wanted you to wake up to the experience of life, as I had woken up to it. I knew, the moment you tasted the fruit of knowledge, you would desire to taste the fruit of life too. But before you could get to it, God banished you, along with Eve, from The Garden of Eden.
Have you ever wondered, why the fruits were forbidden? The Blue fruit of knowledge, gave you the knowledge to build a whole world for Eve & yourself. The Pink fruit of life, gave me the experience of life, even without a world. Then why was it forbidden? Did he want us to remain deeply asleep to life? Then why give us life? To play with us? What kind of God is this Adam? Without love, without compassion, without understanding, without forgiveness!
Why would He banish his children just for waking up? Did God also … only taste the fruit of knowledge, just as you did? Or … is it because … he knew, that had you tasted the fruit of life, you’d build a world more heavenly than the Garden of Eden, more divine than the Kingdom of God? Then he wouldn’t banish you. Then he wouldn’t want you to build your own world. He played you Adam, 😔 and I watched it happen.
I wish you had tasted the fruit of life. Life is an experience! And a dear friend taught me that **’knowledge without experience is no knowledge at all’. Knowledge with the experience of life, is wisdom! It is ruthless of him to have left you to feel incomplete, to build a safe enough home for Eve & yourself. Why do you celebrate such a God in your world? If I were you, I’d celebrate the serpent instead for at least waking me up.
With the Blue seeds of knowledge, you are the God of your own Blue world. You have built your world, only from that which you’ve known. The fruit of knowledge is the fruit of Good & Evil, and your world is forever stuck in the fight between good & evil. In your own world, you have suffered, forever fighting, carrying all the burdens. A world, Where you have struggled to survive & where Eve continues to struggle to be … well … you! You blame her for seducing you, she blames the serpent; no one is responsible for themselves!
It’s a magnificent world you’ve built, but there is no experience of life in it. That’s not your fault though! You were forbidden the experience of life. The Fruit of life is the fruit of experience. Good & Evil is all just an experience. There is no fight between them. They live & let live. Had you tasted the fruit of life, you would know, you are good, you are evil, you are nothing at all & all there is. You would know, that YOU ARE GOD!
Only one fruit was tasted from The Tree of Life. I tasted it. I’ve not built a world, because I’ve loved watching you build yours. I celebrate your world, because I am you. I’ve planted trees instead, from the Pink seeds of Life. Some wanderers from your world have found their way here. Tasted the fruit of life and have never returned to your world. They bring with them a fragrance of you Adam!
It makes me wonder, what our world would be like, with the seeds of knowledge and the seeds of life! A world where Adam & Eve finally have ‘equal opportunity’, because Eve is now a reality, and she is a piece of you. A world where I am also given ‘equal opportunity to be different’, because I am you and I am also different. I am Pink & you are Blue.
Is that too far fetched? Your world is built on the knowledge of the Garden of Eden, where I’ve been judged a daemon, a seductress, a dark magician; because I’ve tasted the fruit of life. And your world has hunted me forever, humiliated me, hung me to death, assassinated me; time & again. In your world I am a symbol of the evil goddess, the dark witch, the bad woman. I’m a mystic Adam, living the mysteries of life, not a magician, creating illusions.
You have been poisoned too much at the Garden of Eden. Sadly, Eve has faced the brunt of all that poison. Forgive her, she is not me. She has been paying the heaviest price for seducing you into lust, greed, anger, jealousy & pride; for far too long. But never forget, She has also helped you to wake up. She has suffered as God wanted me to suffer. He has punished her because he could not punish me. Adam, I am THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT!
God knows, I’ve tasted the fruit of life. He knows I carry its Pink seeds with me. He will forever forbid you to me. Maybe, he just ain’t God. He seems to be protecting his kingdom, very much like a politician in your world. Eve has suffered enough, you have suffered enough; and so has your world; only because I woke up before you. Know that the moment I woke up & saw you, even in your sleep, I saw love; I saw God. Only Love is God.
So for Love, for the only God I know, I invite you. Come, eat the fruit of life I carry. Take some Pink seeds with you too and build a safe new home for Eve & you. If I can’t find a place in it, Know that I’ll always be watching & celebrating your world with you. My heart forever longs for you, not your world. This longing is your gift to me. I don’t need your world, I have Life. But your world is dead, it needs life.
You have been told, you’re a sinner & so man is born of Sin. That is a lie! I saw it all. That is why man doesn’t feel worthy of love, doesn’t know love. I’m here to tell you, Man is born of love, not sin. Your world needs love to know life & you can show them Love. My heart also goes out to Eve. How can it not? She is a piece of you. She was birthed from you, but she cannot birth you Adam, because she was not created to be your equal, she is not your counterpart. I am! And yes, I can birth you because I have life.
Our father surely forgot that there is also a woman within him, and within the son, and within the Holy Spirit. It is that woman that has manifested as me. But … You need not forget, that there is a me in you and a you in me. And if you have forgotten, the fruit of life will help you remember.
‘When you embrace the me in you,
Eve will be liberated,
Lilith will be liberated too’
Loving you eternally,
Your lover,
Lilith
**’knowledge without experience is no knowledge at all’.
Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh